“It hurts, this thing in me. I speak but my voice sounds like an echo. I am riddled with hatred…. for myself. My world spins and I can’t stop it. I can’t manage my thoughts and I can’t manage what I’m feeling. I’m frightened.

I want it to end. I just want to be normal.

Help me to get better, I want to get better but don’t judge me or tell me it will just go away. It’s not going away but I’m too ashamed to tell you about it.”